Mom worry is something I started to experience the minute I found out I was pregnant and since then I don’t think it has ever gone away. Sure it has its peaks and valleys but at anytime on any given day it is always there in one way or another and probably will be until the day I die…if it even ends there.
On the scale of mom worry I would say thus far in my experience as a mom the times when my little one is sick sure raises the numbers on the scale to epic proportions more than most anything else. Silly or not even just a little cough or sniffle or an off day gets my mind racing. Every piece of my being just wants my baby to be happy and healthy so anything that interferes with that sets my teeth on edge.
Over the last couple of days we have been dealing with what I think is just a typical stomach bug and it has been so difficult to watch my daughter suffer as she gets through it. I can tell every part of her just wants to be able to run around and play with her toys but she just doesn’t have the energy. I feel so helpless! If only I could take her place and be sick instead so she doesn’t have to be. (And yes I realize I probably have it coming my way any minute now…gotta love germs.)
My crazy overactive mommy mind constantly goes to all the “what ifs”…what if this is more than just a stomach bug…what if she has a food allergy to dairy or gluten…what if this is something worse? And also all the zillion other questions running through my head…should we go to the doctor…is she dehydrated…when has this been going on for to long…what should I feed her…is there anything I can do to make her feel better faster…am I doing enough for her? And on and on and on.
I hope that with more time, experience and advice from Grandma I will slowly start to be more at ease when it comes to all these normal and numerous illnesses I am going to see my daughter go through as she grows up. For now I will just have to keep my crazy, over bearing, wrought with worry mom brain locked away and under wraps!
On a positive note, although I can’t stand her being sick I must say I do treasure all of the extra snuggles and cuddles I am getting as she makes her way through this. Those are such a rare treat now adays!
Anyway there was no real point to this post other than I just needed to get my feelings down and of course to offer my support to anyone else out there who is going through another round of acute mom worry.